Drug Addiction Movies: In My Pursuit for Happiness and Quest for Freedom – Alcoholism and Drug Addiction

Alcoholism and drug addiction gave me a life of misery and bondage.

An innocent beginning, with drugs and alcohol.

It’s funny but when I take an honest look at it, that’s what I was looking for. Happiness, more fun a little more zest added by drugs and alcohol to whatever it was I was doing. Looking back I drank and drugged with everything. Parties, at the movies, night clubs, the gym, at work even Karate school.

Smoke a joint with the morning coffee, brunch was great because we had wine, beer with lunch, Saki with sushi, wine with dinner, and then finish that off with a joint. Beer and cocaine before sex a joint after, I skateboarded better if I smoked weed (So I thought). I’d be stoned on the bus and the subway, before I’d get on a plane while walking through Central park or in Coney Island anywhere anyplace and everything all of the time. Eventually I out grew the skateboard, now I started to drive. As drug addiction and alcoholism started to drive my life.

Steering wheel in one hand a 40 ounce Bud in the other. Now I was putting other people at risk. Did I care? NO! Honestly I didn’t think or see anything wrong with it. That’s how powerful the disease of addiction is, you think that right is wrong and that wrong is right. I honestly didn’t think anything was wrong with what I was doing. Even after the 1st, 2nd and even the 3rd DWI (driving while intoxicated). To top it off, all of these activities and self lies were accompanied by ongoing and increasing insanity. And when I look back at it today it was because I just wanted to have fun and be happy.

Blind before 20,

The only thing was that, that pursuit for happiness turned into an obsession for a never ending high and that obsession blinded me from the truth, honestly. Now drugs and alcohol was robbing me of my freedom. I was a captive of my own war and in my war I lived a life of search and destroy. What was I destroying? ME, my life, the lives of the people that loved me the most and even innocent people that didn’t even who I was. Then I would have the nerve to say, “I’m not hurting anybody and if I am hurting anybody it’s me.” Was I ever wrong? Because the people that I love the most are still paying for my insanity in some way or another. You see, I took hostages my wife that is ten years younger than me and my two children. My kids were both teenagers when I sobered up.When I first met my wife she couldn’t finish a glass of wine. When I decided that I had had enough, her addiction was in full force. And the strangest thing was that like I mentioned earlier that obsession had made me blind. Blind to the truth, and the truth was that I and my loved ones were prisoners of a battle within myself. Then one day, I don’t know how it happened. I came face to face with the enemy, the enemy was me.

I met the enemy, The enemy was me.

I remember one night my wife and I were locked up in our bedroom engaging in our insane activates. I don’t know what happened. I think it’s was that moment of clarity that they talk about in the AA Big Book. But my wife said to me.” I would never get hooked” But when I looked in her eyes. I realized that not only was she hooked but she was completely consumed by her addiction. At that moment I realized, that something had to change and that something was me. Within a little bit of time after that moment I had surrendered.

Taking a look back an honest look back. I had parties, movie’s, night clubs, disco’s the gym, karate, good meals great trips, Central park, Coney Island, NYC, girlfriends, skateboarding buddies and a great family. Just to mention a few of the activities and people life has blessed me with. My disease made me blind to the fact that I was having fun and if I wasn’t, there was plenty of fun to be had.

The gifts of recovery,

We live in an abundant world, but we also live in an abundant mind. When we clutter our mind with other artificial feel good substances such as drugs and alcohol our thoughts get polluted and makes us blind to the beauties of this magnificent wonderful world and life.

Change your thinking, change your world.

Today I am now 6 years sober and drug free. My wife of 23 years is also sober and by my side. We have found happiness within recovery. I have even recovered me, through recovery.

As far, as my quest for freedom is concerned.

Every Monday night for the last four years, I walk into the same local jail that I lived in plenty of times. And I meet with a bunch fellow alcoholics and addicts that being in jail is the least of their problems. And my hope and inspiration to them is when I finish the meeting with the AA promises and I say to them. Today I am free at last free at last, Thank God all mighty I am free at last.

The truth is that you can walk out of a jail and still be enslaved or just like myself walk into a jail and be a free man.

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